xoxo

I'm tired of being misunderstood, nerves are shot, weak – like old wood.

I'm tired of so-called friends, stabbing me in the back, again and again.

I'm tired of trying to make things right, I give up – I surrender, no will to fight.

I'm tired of seeing others in pain, raises frustration, drives me insane.

I'm tired of being “strong,” i'm weak, i'm fragile, its gone on way to long.

I don't know what else to say,

i'm hoping, i'm dreaming,
i'm begging, i'm pleading,
please, take this feeling away.
Right now... I'm just tired...


If you don't dream big, what's the use of dreaming ?

you eat, you're fat *like me?*. you don't eat, you're a freak. you drink, you're an alcoholic. you don't drink, you're a pussy. you read, you're a nerd. you don't read, you're stupid. you tell a secret, you're an attention seeker. you don't tell a secret, you're still attention seeking. you let someone in, you're easy. you don't let someone in, you're too uptight. you smoke, you think you're cool. you don't smoke, you're a loser. you've had sex, you're a slut. you haven't had sex, you're a frigid little bitch. you wear make up, you're a slag. you don't wear make up, you're ugly. you can't please anyone. ever.

and me, I'm the type of girl who spends most of her time on twitter. phone during hours. never stop talking. say 'I love you' each time you can. being scared to say it when we really mean it. still do it. say everything to your friends. listening to loud music. laughing for stupid shit. talk and actually say nothing. take pictures of anything and everything. goes shopping with friends. buy everything. look at herself like she's never been better. meet new people. getting really close to them to fast. being sad when remembering. trust the wrong people. believe everything they say. not listening in class than seeing that you didn't understand a thing. not being happy. cry over a guy. pretending everything's okay when nothing is. smile to make people happy. cry while listening to sad music. make mistakes. being nice to people we love. saying stuff we don't mean when we're mad. regretting. always find something to say to have the last word. never be totally satisfied. always want more. thinking about him all the time. being hurt. I guess, in life we have sad, happy and loud moments. ♥